Monday, February 23, 2015
Tuesday, February 10, 2015
Happy
Today I got some encouraging mail. My little social security report came in. It's the one that reports my earnings throughout my life and then estimates how much I will get each month when I retire. Well, aside from the fact that most people make in a year what my lifetime income has been, I feel ok. My number looks like I will be able to buy enough cat food and wine to see me to the end. I'm stoked.
I have not written much lately. That doesn't mean that nothing is happening. Contrary. I am rebuilding my life after all the inner struggles that I have been through. I blame no one for the struggles. It's my journey. My life. I'm driving, and my brakes work. So does the gas.
I am completely honored that a friend texted me today feeling lost and in the dark. He knew I would understand. The fact that I was turned to when something too weird and painful to explain was happening...well, welcome to my freak world. What if all this was for something? I will shine my little light.
Love will make you do some crazy things. It has made me do some. I have offered myself a la carte, allowing someone to choose only the dessert or the best or whatever. I'm like one of those elephants that hunters took the tusks and left the rest of me, my whole self, to rot. No more. I know that James Taylor said that there is no doubt that love's the finest thing around. He's right. I want the real stuff.
And that's about it. I am happy and whole.
I have not written much lately. That doesn't mean that nothing is happening. Contrary. I am rebuilding my life after all the inner struggles that I have been through. I blame no one for the struggles. It's my journey. My life. I'm driving, and my brakes work. So does the gas.
I am completely honored that a friend texted me today feeling lost and in the dark. He knew I would understand. The fact that I was turned to when something too weird and painful to explain was happening...well, welcome to my freak world. What if all this was for something? I will shine my little light.
Love will make you do some crazy things. It has made me do some. I have offered myself a la carte, allowing someone to choose only the dessert or the best or whatever. I'm like one of those elephants that hunters took the tusks and left the rest of me, my whole self, to rot. No more. I know that James Taylor said that there is no doubt that love's the finest thing around. He's right. I want the real stuff.
And that's about it. I am happy and whole.
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