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I am learning, as usual. I'll forget this stuff, too. I am in a constant cycle of ebb and flow. Dip and dive. My heart is wanting to cling to people for dear life, but I know I shouldn't do that. I have to remind myself that I'll be ok. Shhhhh. What could possible happen that I can't take?

I'm not sure what it means to be loved. Please know that is no reflection of the people that love me. They sincerely do. But I fear I am a bottomless pit. It's like when you don't drink enough water, and then you make sure you drink water all day. You are thirstier than ever. It's like your body woke up parched, dry, and gasping. Just trying to get as much as it can before the hydration stops. That's me. My heart.

So I pray and ask Him to help me. My new job is so foreign to me, but I keep looking at the picture of my kids....I can do anything. Screw everybody.

I changed my name. Again. I am Karen Marie Louque Miller. The best name in the world. I am happy.