Today I will try to be satisfied with reality. Not what I want or think I need. Not what I never really had to begin with. Just what is in front of me. The truth. I want that. I will only see the things that are happening. Not what is said or what I wish so desperately. I just want to be honest and live in that. That's all.

My truth is that I am loved. I love a lot of people as well. I am afraid and kind of poor. I am sort of pretty sometimes, but I am getting old and that is fading. I am not as healthy as I want to be. I will be. I am sad but I can't live like that. I am different because of it. More holes in my heart.

 I want to feel God looking at me again.

Tell me, what else should I have done?
Doesn't everything die at last, and too soon?
Tell me, what is it you plan to do
with your one wild and precious life?