"Since God is love, all is well. If all is not well, it is not the end."
One would think, by watching my life, that I have never met a liar that I did not offer my heart to in earnest. I apparently think these people are the cat's ass. Again, one would think. I'm not sure why I do this. Perhaps I'm still fixing little Karen, but I really would like to just accept her as is.
When faced with truth after a shit load of lies with a partner, friend, parent, or whoever, you don't get to just chalk it up. You must go back to the beginning of the relationship with the said liar, and insert this new truth into every moment. It all becomes redefined in light of this reality. Nothing was real without considering the truth that was hidden. It fuckin sucks. It also takes a while to grieve what never really was.
This may seem to be going in a crappy direction. But to the contrary, not so. As much as these moments hurt, I will always celebrate the truth. I can deal with the truth. And I am dealing.
Truth is....
I have the best kids I could ever imagine . I get to help raise my Leon, and I am grandma to my sweet Arliss. I live on a lake with a beautiful view. I work for a man that is in a 3 way tie with my favorite people in the world. I found a farm nearby where I get raw goat's milk. I have great friends that love me. I am honest. I do not hurt people with lies. I have all the sports channels. Light overcomes the darkness. I still believe in God. I have no idea what He is thinking. But I believe I will know one day. I still have love. And I think I can save the world.
So, that is today. Peace to all.
Veritas.
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