Love Salmon

Today is another day in our existence. Another chance to live well. I am in a struggle these days. I hate that my blog is sometimes a little sad. But since this is my small history, I can be true to that. Maybe by putting these events and nuances and dreams into words, I will make some sense. At the very least, I will record it. Interpretation is relative. It's my teeny weeny, well intended contribution to this Road.

Each day is this long journey of emotion and spirit and psychological hills and valleys. I am a hopeful person. I believe that anything can be fixed and that with enough love, there is nothing that can't be healed. I am just having to adjust my definition of fixed and healed. Evidently, it's broader than my scope. Who knew?

Love.

 It covers the multitude of sins. It is the greatest of all the gifts. In the end , it will be everything, so it's where we are all heading. In this great human migration. We are all collectively and autonomously moving toward It. Some of us are looking down, some up. Many are just swept in the  tide not aware that they are in a great, deep current. Some of us have been chosen to swim against the current. To miraculously break ourselves and still get there. Like salmon, we will fight, unwind, jump obstacles, injure ourselves against all odds for the undeniable urge to get home. And die. That is how it feels for me. I have this love in me. It is tragic and beautiful. But my course just won't be altered. I will see this love through. Like all of us. Some will just carry on, swept away in this enormous group of light and dark. They can't or won't acknowledge that we are all moving. But I can see. I prefer to see. Love is at the end. Or in the center. And God is Love.

I am learning how to pray. Again. For this time. Right now is just to be healed. To be filled up and given strength. I hope soon I will have enough light to shine again on others. I hope after all this I will be warm enough to warm someone else. I pray for truth, light, and for those that probably have no hope. Can't help myself.

God is good to me. I will accept all of this.