Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things unseen.
So today I will try to hope. And I will believe in what I cannot see. I think hope is the tricky one. I am forever downplaying my expectations and hopes because I get let down sometimes. And when I am let down, I am not good at hiding it anymore. I spent a lifetime of suppressing my feelings, and now they are just "out there". Poor Tracy. I used to be so good at the "good face". All this authenticity is so damn explicit. It makes a fool out of me often.(sigh) But I will try to hope anyway. Who knows? Maybe something good will happen!
Hi Karen,
ReplyDeleteI have followed your blog for awhile, and just want to say I so appreciate and admire your openness.
I'm glad you are trying hope "anyway". Because the alternative is bleak and dim. Think of it ... to be "hope-less". It makes me shudder.
I HOPE for you that you will try hope "always".
Hope is a funny hting - you always do it, jsut like breathing! Keep the faith!
ReplyDeleteKaren, you have to get Glitter in the Air by Pink on your play list! Seriously, I cry every time I hear it!
ReplyDeletehi karen
ReplyDeletei understand what you mean that you are good at the "good face"...even your blog is so good at the "good face".....anyhow..
in reading your last entry i found out the big big difference between "hope" and "expectations"...and that brings me further with my set of thoughts about fate...
..i always hope for the best and expect nothing..people always ask "what do you expect? did your get what u expected?"..and i always reply..."if you get what you expect you can only get what you can imagine - and i want more!"...
...we have deserved more...you're feelings are out there, and explicit, BUT THEY ARE....i guess a big part of the good-face-people i know are not surpressing their feelings, they found it easier to loose them ....and they work hard on it
...and it doesn't make a fool out of you...or well...yes it does, but it is not bad..maybe men know that better because we make fools of ourselfs so often.....
good luck
T.
... a heart that hurts is a hearth that beats (u2)
Wow, thanks for the great responses. Carole, I blogged about Glitter a while back and it has been on the playlist for that long, too. Silly girl. I cry, too. Thanks again for the wonderful insights.
ReplyDeleteKet, glad and mortified that you noticed that my blog is the good face! I struggle with how much to say, mainly because my children read this, and I care more than anything about them. I have written and immediately deleted many, many posts. Thanks for noticing.
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